I accept your hand and give it a small squeeze as my chest feels like it's going to bubble over with warmth. There is probably no one more kindhearted and genuine than you, and I'd be selfish to claim you as mine. You're all I have, though, and when you say you love me even when I'm sad, I believe you. I trust you enough to know you wouldn't lie to me, even if you could. I give in and hug you tightly, taking a deep breath before saying, "why are you so kind..?" I don't want to cause you any pain, but I find myself wishing that I could just say that I love you too. You're all I have, and the idea of having you with me forever gives me a tiny glimmer of hope for my future. I want you to be happy forever, but maybe, just maybe I can be selfish this once. Maybe I could give "us" a chance. I don't want to lose you...a person as accepting as you is hard to find, and God knows I need someone like you in my life.
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